WantThinnerMe

Hey all!

Over the past week it has started to get pretty cold here (lows in 30s and 40s) so I started to dig out my winter clothes. The morning I did this I was about to FREEZE as we don’t have the heat on yet (burn wood) so I pulled out my favorite pull over fleece from last year jammed it over and head and WOW its HUGE! The sleeves fall over my hands, the hem is almost at my knees and the neck was over a shoulder. Hmmmm that’s strange! This fit last year! I wonder about my jean jacket? Last year it was too small across the shoulders and wouldn’t button at all and HEY its baggy even buttoned up! My jogging pants I am stepping on and they won’t stay up!

I had been bummed over the past month or so because I haven’t lost anything (and what I did I gained back), everyone keeps saying how I look so different, etc. but I don’t see it. I guess I should say didn’t see it. Digging out and trying all the clothes that fit or were too small last year just to see that they were way to big or actually fit was so awesome! It has inspired me to keep going as I do have a VERY long ways to go (200lbs to be exact) but it was nice to see the changes.

Me in one leg of the pants that fit last winter.

WOW I can’t believe that it has been a little over four months since I started this journey. It seems like in some ways that I started just yesterday and in other ways it seems like it has been years. I have lost 43lbs in my four month journey which puts me within 7lbs of my mini goal. It took me 2yrs to gain 60lbs (when I started college) and now I have worked off 43lbs of it in just four short months. I still can’t wrap my head around that, in some ways I can’t believe that I have come so far and in others I am mad at myself for not starting this journey sooner so I would have had less to lose. Oh well, you can’t go in reverse.

Fall semester starts on monday, I am a little worried that I won’t have time for my exercise but I am determined to not get off track. I am willing to get lower grades to keep on track, what will a degree mean if I am so fat that no one will higher me or what will one mean if I die a few years after getting it. No, this journey has to come first no matter what.

Well, here they are, my starting and current picture. I am far from through with this journey but I have the time and I am not going to stop short this time.

Well all!

Well I offically lost the 3 pounds that I gained so back to a total of 12 pounds loss. Not a bad start but will have a very long ways to go.

It is hot! I think that summer finally found us! The temps have been touching 90 which isn’t too bad but th humidity has been horrible! I swear our weather has been that of a tropical rain forest the past couple of years. I keep telling the family that if we are going to have to suffer through this kind weather at least why don’t we live somewhere that has the same temps but a much better view!! The family and I have been talking about moving for a couple of years, right now no money to go anywhere but even if we didn’t we don’t know where to go. We have talked about MO, AR, NM, and etc. but each place has its problems which won’t work for us. The other day I was thinking that if I am going to move somewhere why not jump off and go somewhere like Italy, Rome, Greece, etc!?!? I mean if we are going to do it while not go all of the way? It won’t happen but still fun to think about!

Well, just a bit ago I was in my room changing clothes when I got a glimpes of my legs in the mirror and WHOA! This is weird, my left leg is tight and starting to get a toned look to it but the right leg is like twice the size of the left and around the upper part really flabby. I wonder why there is such of a difference? I can’t believe with the size difference that I am not walking crooked! Gezzz I guess I am offically a freak!!!!

I starting mixing up my hourly (3 mile) walk the past few days and think I am going to keep it. Instead of walking for an hour at an even pace I started walking for 30 mins in the morning at a quick pace with jogging added in and in the evening I do the same. WOW what a change, it is so much harder work! I think that this way is going to burn a lot more calories. I started a week or so ago doing core training on my stability ball which I really like. The biggest problem now is that I always forget, I haven’t been remembering until just before I fall asleep. I had the same problem when I first started walking, hopefully this too will become a habit.

As always thank you to all of my great buddies that have been with me through thick and thin, I couldn’t be doing this without you.

I will leave you with this picture of Italy I ran across.

Well last week I was amazed that I lost 5 pounds! I didn’t even get a chance to exercise everyday. I was excited too see that I earned a red star and since I have had my scale (a month) I have lost 12 pounds. Well, that was last week, this week my eating has been not going so good. My Grandmas 80th birthday was this weekend and at her party I had 3 pieces of pizza, I don’t know what I was thinking. Then, last night we had a cookout and even though the food wasn’t bad I ate way to much (did keep away from the roasted mellos though). I know that at LEAST on two times I have been WAY over my calories. I need to kick it into gear, I gained back a pound or two from last weeks loss which makes me mad at myself. I have such wonderful supportive buddies that I am letting down so I need to do this not only for me but for them.

I got my wrap skirt and am glad it is something that I like. I got it on Ebay and the lady was selling 70 of them and you just got one without knowing what it looked like. It is two sided, made of silk and feels oh so nice! It would be indesent to wear now but soon.

This week has been very rainy so walking has been hard, usually of the mud isn’t too bad I walk anyway but yesterday had to do a exercise tape.

I am excited as this Saturday I am driving to a nieghboring state to see Sonia Choquette, I love her books and have some WONDERFUL friends who bought me tickets. So today I was getting ready and trying to think of what I could wear, we line dry all of our clothes so I wanted to make sure I had something to wear before it starts raining tomorrow (don’t want to wear damp clothes). Anyway I was digging through my draws and came across my “wishing” draw which contains all of my clothes that don’t fit anymore. I saw a pair of beaded jeans which are a 26 (currently I’m a 28) and what do yeah know they fit great! That was a nice surprise!!

I had an idea earlier this week and finally followed through with it. I love pretty skirts but don’t wear them because I just look terrible in them (completely round!). but I had the idea of buying a wrap skirt. So I went online a found a one size fits all (my current size down) so as I loose weight I will be able to wrap it around more until it is it’s smallest size which is a 6-8. I thought this would be a good way to “see” the results as they come. Once I am at my goal weight I will have a nice pretty skirt to wear. Probably a dumb idea but I thought what they hey.

I am REALLY tired as I haven’t been able to sleep very well. Last night I was the first night where I got to bed at a good time and was able to fall asleep but then at 2:00am the dogs started barking like crazy and I kept hearing something strange. It finally hit me that they (ranchers) had moved cattle in across the road from my house (grass pasture) and it sounded like my dogs were chasing them. I jumped up and ran out and yelled at them and sure enough, my little Shiba Inu was in the middle of the herd. She is usually in the house at night but earlier in the evening she threw up everywhere so I had kicked her out. Once I got back to bed I couldn’t sleep for nothing, totally awake. I am sure dragging now, need to caught up before Saturday as I have to leave EARLY to make it to the lecture in time. I have a big exam I need to study for but just can’t concentrate, I guess I will head off and go for a walk, maybe that will make me up.

Hello everyone!

I didn’t to overly well this week. I stuck with my exercise and even stepped it up a little but I let my eating slide. I didn’t eat badly just to much, I don’t know why I thought that since I was exercising I could stop watching my calories, dumb choice on my part for sure! I lost 3 pounds last week (weigh in on Friday) but my then gained back a couple of pounds but was able to get myself in gear loose the weight again and another 2 pounds to boot. I am not going to make that mistake again and am back to watching how much I eat. I was happy because with my 2 pounds of weight loss this week I got my first white star with was a surprise since I didn’t know anything about them.

I made a discovery yesterday when was cool. I was wearing my “fat” jeans which are the only ones I can wear (size 28) and I doing my hair in front of the full length mirror and noticed that the jeans looked bad because the seat of them was so baggy! I wear my jeans around my belly instead of waist because that is the only way they will fit so I look the waist line and pulled them up to my waist and WOW they fit and they look nice! They really make my waist look long and thin not make fat and stick out like jeans do when they are low. I didn’t even know that pants could be worn around the actual waist without my looking pregnant! This is only 5 pounds lost, I am so excited at the changes, I can’t wait to see 10, 15, 20, 100, 150, and FINALLY 190 pounds lost. It will truly be amazing!!!

Another AWESOME discovery yesterday that I HAVE TOES!!! I don’t know if you have all seen the movie Money Pit with Tom Hanks but I LOVE the part when he yells through the house “WE HAVE STAIRS!!!!”. That is exactly the way I felt yesterday when I was just standing there and glaced down at my feet and HOLY MOLY I can see my toes!  I haven’t seen my toes unless I was sitting with my feet on the couch or bending over in years! It is funny how little things like that are like YES!! I AM doing it!!!!

A HUGE THANK YOU to all of my buddies who are so wonderful and have helped me stay on track more than you will ever know!

I mean to write here more often but school has really been bogging me down (she actually be doing it right now).

I have been walking daily for 60 mins and am really starting to enjoy it! It has finally made habit so I don’t forget anymore.

It has been 34 days since I started and I have have exercised 26 of the 34 days so not bad. I have also changed by diet by cutting 99% of cheese out of my diet, watching portions and keeping and eye on calories. I have fell back a bit and start over eating some again so I need to nip that in the bud.

I want to add in Turbo Jams Ab Jam workout and weights but haven’t had time lately. I was excited to weigh in today as it has been a weight since I got my scale and I went down 3 pounds!! I still have SO far to go but am happy that I am least making some progress. I just keep telling myself that I can’t change 23 years in mere weeks so I keep working on. I have made so many great friends here that have helped me along, I am grateful to you all!

I am going garage selling tomorrow, I really shouldn’t take that must time off of school as I have three papers to write by Sunday night but I this point in the semester I find myself not really caring (I know, bad!).

I hope everyone has a wonderful weekend, it is suppose to rain here (for the next five days actually) and it is still really muddy from the storms we had a few days ago! Oh well, can’t control mother nature!

Hello,

I know that I don’t post here very often but today I am quite excited. According to my scale I haven’t lost any weight over the past 3.5 weeks (two different scales though) but I have been taken pictures of myself so I can watch my progress and keep motivated.

The time difference between these photos is 3.5 weeks, onederland here I come!

Hello! If you are reading this you will probably find not to much use. I needed I place to jot down the calories in the foods I eat so I thought I would keep track here so I have a quick reference.

Banana: 86 cals

Apple: 72 cals

Orange: 59 cals

Grapefruit: 35 cals

Whole wheat pasta: 340 cals (two cups)

Whole wheat bread: 70 cals (per slice)

Brown rice: 150 cals (1 cup)

Smart balance butter: 70 cals (1 TBS)

Cottage cheese: 90 cals (1/2 cup)

Yogurt: 110 cals (1 yogurt cup)

Tortilla: 80 cals

Pinto beans: 240 cals (per cup)

PPJ whole wheat pizza: 290 (per slice)

Natural peabut butter: 210 cals (2 TBS)